Relinquish

Relinquish is the word that I heard God speak on Easter. . He got my attention with this one.. I don’t use this word in conversation..I knew it came from Him.

So what does it mean? It is bigger than letting go..it comes closer to surrender. It seems to me that He is asking me to stopping holding on to things that I desperately want and really give up on trying to make them happen. Very hard for a “doer” like me..I always want to make things happen..I get satisfaction from being able to help people..connect people..figure out a way to contribute..add something. Not bad things in themselves..but dangerous when God is really wanting to be at the wheel.

He wants a deep part of me to trust Him..the part that still enjoys figuring out what will happen next..and the way it will happen. He is drawing me to a place inside where I have no answers..a place that scares me. It means taking bigger risks with Him.. trusting Him with things that feel completely out of control.

The whole process is very humbling..I need God much more than I ever imagined. It challenges my individualist nature and my strong personality. Who am I if I really rely on God for EVERYTHING? Do I have a part? What does He really want when He says relinquish? I am writing so I can discover the true nature of this word and receive it.. then I can move forward with Him.

Has He said something similiar to you? What does  it truly mean to relinquish everything to Him? .. feel free to comment, I would love to hear your thoughts, ideas, or experiences.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.”