Revisiting Romans 8:28

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve been thinking about this verse lately and feeling like I need to write about it. You know the one I mean ” God works all things to the good of those who love Him” or as the Message says:

Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

I need to believe that right now.. usually I keep the details of my life fairly private. I don’t think it is a great idea to pour out your heart on a blog..I use my journal for that purpose. However today I feel the need to share a bit of my story. Over the last 5 years we have been going through the fire.. my husband lost his job, then could not find another one for 31/2 years and after that we took a cleaning job for the church that was pretty much unbearable for all of last year. It was clear during that time that my husband was not doing well and something was wrong.. but not clear what it was. I was afraid to find out his diagnosis so we delayed going to the neurologist until last month.. unfortunately the news is not good, he has a rare form of aphasia that is progressive and there is no cure.. you can look it up if you like. What has this meant for us? Everything in our lives has completely changed and we are facing a very unknown future ..It feels like life as we once knew it is gone. All our hopes and dreams are gone.. even many of the activities we once did are out of reach these days.

Fear and grief are my constant companions..especially in the middle of the night. Loneliness and isolation are close by as well.. sadness and loss seem to be the new reality. So this brings me back to Romans 8:28.. I see no way that God is going to work this into something good.. but because He never lies, He will. Is that comforting.. not really.. I just want everything back the way it used to be before this disease entered our lives.. I know that the Lord is teaching me things right now, but honestly I don’t want to learn them.. enough is enough. So I continue to trust that He is involved in our lives and we are not forsaken.. I hope to write more on this blog and to work on my book that I want to finish during this season. I am praying for God to provide since we have no resources..we are in His hands totally.. Some days I feel like the disciples in the boat with Jesus.. filled with fear and anxiety while He is sleeping.. wondering when I am going to drown in this sea of sorrow..

So pray for us please.. and if you get a word of encouragement.. please post it here and we will be grateful…..More words of wisdom from Eugene Peterson’s the Message….

All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too. (2 Cor 1:3-5)

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4 thoughts on “Revisiting Romans 8:28

  1. Alicia. I am so very sorry. May the Lord provide every need. Please check out my song I posted this morning. Sorry, I’m on phone so don’t know how to paste link here. It’s called The Well of Despair. May it bless and comfort you. Praying.

  2. Dear Alicia, I’ve enjoyed your blog for a long time because often it’s been the right words at the right time. You have a wonderful way of writing that speaks to me. Now, I’d like to encourage you to stay the course, trust your savior and remember all His benefits. I’m sorry for these struggles you and your husband are going through right now and I will keep you on my prayer list. Believing that God cares for you, hears your prayers and has your best interests in mind will be hard to do but having trust and faith will bring you joy, peace and blessings. He is in control and He does love you (and your husband) infinitely. This alone can cause a sad heart to turn joyfully to the God and fill the air with praise. You will find many blessings hidden in the suffering. Singing praise or even a silent praise can help a heavy heart. Check out Isaiah 40:10, Romans 9:20 and Psalm 100:4-5 We can live joyfully in the midst of these struggles and have hope in a hopeless world. We don’t want to miss this great opportunity to grow and mature in Christ. Thanks for sharing your heart with the world. Your blog is a great and I always look forward to reading it. – Katie

  3. Hi Katie.. your words are so encouraging and I appreciate you taking the time to comment. I will look up those passages of scripture.. knowing that the Lord is using you to give me hope through His word:) It felt good to put that story out there.. although a little scary. Maybe finishing the book I am writing is a good idea during this season.. that way God can use my pain to minister to others.. something He has always done and something I am grateful to see in my life.. Blessings, Alicia

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