The last ten years..




For the last few days I’ve been aware of this sense that I need to tell my story.. I used to do this when I had the opportunity to do it in women’s groups. Those seem to be gone, yet I still need to tell my story … I know that other people’s stories bring me such encouragement. So.. the last ten years have been extremely challenging.. I graduated from Seminary in 2006 and started my counseling practice that same year. My prayer was that the Lord would provide through my husband Steve. I knew the counseling was more a ministry than a business and I was hoping for a release from financial problems. That really never happened.

Steve has worked.. but all the jobs have been temporary and even those opportunities dried up. The country went into a recession and he got older. We have been in this unemployment prison for over 3 years and there is no release date posted.. God is keeping that to himself at the moment. It has been extremely difficult. We have been hopeful and then the hope was gone.. like a roller coaster ride of emotions. I am facing another birthday next month and wondering how we will make it through the rest of our lives. We have no house to lose or any savings to lose.. maybe that is better than watching everything disappear. It is lonely and  I never expected these years to present this type of challenge. The uncertainty is huge and unfortunately it triggers lots of fears and insecurities.

But.. God is in this.. He is allowing it.. He knows all about it and it is not punishment or abandonment. I have been able to work for this entire time.. I learned that He is my source.. I can only do counseling because His spirit is in me and guides me. We are still married and even though we have arguments..they never last long. My own emotions have been hard to manage.. but my husband is very forgiving and loving. I have been blessed.. watching him continue to try for jobs week after week.. to remain hopeful month after month. His unconditional love for me when I have been angry and frustrated has been amazing. Our marriage is stronger.. our faith is stronger. We are relying totally on the goodness of God as this trial continues.

Life does not always turn out the way we want it to.. there are many surprises and disappointments. God is the same no matter what happens. He is good and He is faithful. He does not leave us or forget us. Our only hope is in Him.. trials remind us that there is no where else to go. We cannot lose Him even if we lose everything else.

This morning God reminded me of this scripture from 2nd Chronicles… it is a favorite.

“But you will not even need to fight. Take your positions; then stand still and watch the LORD’s victory. He is with you, O people of Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid or discouraged. Go out against them tomorrow, for the LORD is with you!” 



9 thoughts on “The last ten years..

  1. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
    Standing with you, Alicia!
    His peace be yours💝

  2. Alicia, I hope you do write your story (Perhaps a memoir?). I will want to read it because you encourage us each time you share a part of it. Our family is not where I imagined or hoped it to be either. Our generation isn’t prospering materialistically like my father’s generation did; however, our spiritual lives are richer.
    Blessings of His peace as you wait ~ Wendy

  3. Thank you Wendy for your encouragement.. I am working on a book that includes my story as well as lessons learned in my walk with the Lord over the last 40 years.. You are so right..we may not have what we hoped for in this world, but we live a much more abundant life in the ways that really matter.. xox Alicia

  4. Hi Sneha.. how are you? Thanks for stopping by. God is the source of all my faith and He is continually teaching me to persevere. I am so grateful that my story inspires you.. that is what this blog if all about.. Blessings, Alicia

  5. Reblogged this on Alicia's Roses and commented:

    Facebook reminded me of this post today and I felt like I should share it again with an update. After three years of unemployment we were able to work together, Steve and I, doing a cleaning job for a year. At the end of that time we began to realize he had some cognitive issues that were not going away. In May of this year he was diagnosed with a neurological condition called PPA. The Lord has blessed us with several government programs that provide for our needs. We are retired and I have the best job in the world.. taking care of my amazing husband. No.. not the life I dreamed about but the life God has given me and my job now is to be grateful and live fully .. I hope you are encouraged as you read this.. He is with us in each and every circumstance..

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