That is what I experienced in the last couple days..God’s unchanging grace. We are going through an unexpected trial right now ( are they ever expected!) and I had a very bad day yesterday. I felt like the grace of God was not to be found..I was left with my own raw emotions. It was not a pretty picture. Old angry feelings emerged..scenes from the past haunted me..I could not find God. I felt so alone.
Thankfully I had the presence of mind to cry out and ask God for faith and encouragement..even though I was angry at Him for allowing these circumstances. Of course He was right there and even before I went to sleep I began to sense the grace again..the encouragement and the hope that I thought was lost.
This small experience was enough to remind me that I need Him every single moment and that there is no place to go during the trial except straight to Him..even with all the anger and unbelief. He does not change. His heart is the same and He is not at the mercy of His feelings..because His love for us is much deeper than anything we understand.
I woke up this morning with a scripture that God has given me over and over again..He gave it to us at our wedding and it is a promise that I hold on to with all my heart. I hope it brings encouragement to you today.. He is our redeemer and His promises are forever.
Here it is:
“The Lord says, “I will give you back what you lost
to the swarming locusts, the hopping locusts,
the stripping locusts, and the cutting locusts.
It was I who sent this great destroying army against you.
Once again you will have all the food you want,
and you will praise the Lord your God,
who does these miracles for you.
Never again will my people be disgraced.
Then you will know that I am among my people Israel,
that I am the Lord your God, and there is no other.
Never again will my people be disgraced.”
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Beautiful and in His perfect timing. Thank you.
You are welcome..Thank you Lord!
Thank you for sharing your raw pain and the Grace that soothes, Alicia! Keeping you in my prayers. Grace has definitely been the word of the day today. Sending love as well. To God be the glory!
Thank you Suzanne..I guess we would never really know the grace of God unless we needed it so desperately at times..He is in control!
xo Alicia
Thank you Alicia! I read this and it spoke directly to me and something I am working through. Thank you for your pearls of wisdom. I pray you are blessed!
Thanks Tiffin.. I’ve been thinking about you a lot and praying for God’s best for you in this season..Keep trusting Him.
xo Alicia
‘…I had a very bad day yesterday. I felt like the grace of God was not to be found..I was left with my own raw emotions. It was not a pretty picture. Old angry feelings emerged..scenes from the past haunted me..I could not find God. I felt so alone.’ That sounds like me for about the past month and a half. Feeling emotionally bad is one of the worst things for us as people. Walking into a door or cutting your hand chopping an onion is painful but not the same time. Only God can heal our broken hearts and the fractured and broken existence of our lives.
Yes Tim..nothing really compares to emotional pain..we need His grace to survive those times when it is intense. I pray that the Lord will pour out His love into all the hurting parts of your heart as He has been doing for me.
Since I wrote this post..I have been encouraged by Him and He has been renewing my hope.. I know He will do the same for you.