A year ago

Last spring I wrote about my mom and how she suffered a femur fracture that changed everything for her and for me. It is hard to believe that a year has passed..she is still with us..unable to walk..and in a wheelchair..almost blind. I grapple with all the feelings that her life triggers in me. I don’t want to end up like her..my own mortality is always before me..the aging process is more real than it ever was. I wonder how long she will hang on.

We don’t face death in our culture..we avoid it and we run from it. We act like it won’t happen to us or to anyone we love..and then it does. No one can escape the inevitability of it all. We were not created  to embrace it..it is terribly painful and our hearts break..we never get used to the idea of it..we are all afraid..even if we live in denial. I’m sure that Mom is afraid but she won’t talk about it..it is still too hard..even at 89. As for me..I’ve been close to it many times..no, I am not used to it either. The only thing that stands between me and all that fear of the unknown is the certainty of God. I won’t be alone..He will be with me..and with you and with my mom.

Are you afraid? Is your heart weighed down by things that you cannot control? Is someone close to you suffering? Are you? I don’t have all the answers for you..no one does. Our hope has to be in the sovereignty of our God.. In His goodness..His amazing faithfulness..His life in us..His promises and His grace. He is reaching out to us and promising to take us all the way to the end of our lives here and into the new place He has prepared for us.

“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”

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