A new term that I learned from Dr. Frank James. He is the provost at Gordon Conwell Theological Seminary and a professor of christian history. He used this term to describe his journey through grief..after the death of his brother. He spoke about this at our church on Sunday..his message is worth sharing.
Frank’s brother died while climbing Mount Hood ..he got caught in a blizzard. He took refuge in a cave while his climbing partners went for help. Frank and his family prayed but his brother was not rescued in time. A crisis of faith..that is what Frank experienced. God did not intervene to save his brother and he would never know why. This type of situation forces us forward into uncharted water. Grief..unbearable emotional pain..no answers. We either run away from God or into His arms. There is no standing still.
We will all come to this point one way or another. We will choose to continue on without answers or to turn our backs because we don’t understand. Frank writes about his choice “My conception of faith has become Abrahamic—which is to say, I must trust God even though I do not understand him.” Yes..even though we don’t understand..even if nothing is making sense..even when our hearts are breaking apart.
Our world is a precarious place..things can change at any moment. We may encounter great loss and devastation without any preparation. Our instincts will tell us to run..but where? To hide..but how? There is no place to go. He pulls us toward Himself..His presence is suddenly more real than anything else. We are in the eye of the storm..He is our hiding place.
” The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away;
Blessed be the name of the LORD.”
(Read Frank’s story here:http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2010/september/36.58.html)